Grad season! Hooray! Also Waaaahhhh!

So this happened.

I feel like for the past several weeks I’ve been so focused on the fact that preschool will soon be out and the kids will be home with me all day every day, that I’ve completely glossed over the fact that Tuesday was their last day of preschool. EVER. And after this summer of sweating our asses off and likely driving me crazy, I will have full fledged kindergarteners, and soon they’ll be gone all day every day, and I’ll miss them and have I really made the most of these past 5 years home with them, and now I’m about to vomit.

I’m going to be a mess on the first day of kindergarten, y’all.

Everyone says it will be great. They say I’ll be sad for about a day, then I’ll bask in some freedom. This is what you’ve been waiting for,Β Christian says. And he’s right. I’ve been waiting for the day that they start kinder and we’re not in each other’s faces all the time. I’m a better mom when we all get a break and some space from each other. But can’t they go to kindergarten without growing up? Shouldn’t there be an intermediary step between 2 day a week preschool and 5 day a week kindergarten? Post-preschool-almost-big-kid-but-not-quite-because-mommy’s-not-ready school? (If you answer 3-4 day a week preschool, then yes, thank you, and I will send you the bill. Times 2.)

I’m nervous about them being gone. I know I’ll miss them. I’m sad that they shook their I don’t wanna go to school phase like two weeks before graduation. I’m afraid they won’t like big kid school. I’m afraid they’ll miss preschool.Β I know they’ll be exhausted when they get home. I’m afraid they’ll use up all their good behavior at school and leave the nastiness for me.

I fear I will never get them there by the ass-crack of dawn time of 7:45 in the AM. Seriously? 7:45? 7:45. Β Yeah.


I started crying immediately after I walked out of the church this morning. I was dropping them off at preschool for the last time. EVER. Can’t we just stay in this phase?Β  I asked Christian. Preschool is so fun! Cute crafts, fun games, no real responsibilities. I was a blubbering mess all morning, and racing around town to procure teacher gifts was a welcome distraction.

The pre-k kids got to choose from a list of careers to dress up as for their segment. As completely no surprise to me Claire chose a ballerina, and Rachel chose a baseball player – both such perfect representations of where they are in their preferences and personalities right now.

Zoe played the part of the grumpy 3 year old.

OMG waiting is so. hard.

Kindergarten will be an adventure. A new phase. I’m apprehensive because I know that once they’re in school, they’re IN SCHOOL, and things will never be the same again. There really is no stopping the growing up now. I miss them already and they haven’t even left.

Awkward smiles, everyone!
Whew! All this graduating is hard work, yo.

Take heed: You haven’t really lived until a 5 year old cups your boob and you don’t even notice. Also, hair? What is the matter with you?



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  1. awwww. and hhahahaha. i love that she’s cupping your boob. I love even more that you didn’t notice it at the time. perfect. when my last baby is off to Kindergarten, THEN i will cry. Sounds terrible but all the others before him, I’m pretty excited to see step it up πŸ™‚

  2. Aww I want to tell you it doesn’t go fast but lets be real. I think back when my little girl started kinder. And OMG next year she’s a senior. What the what. Where did the time go. OK that’s not helpful sorry. It seems like it went quick but in other respects it didn’t. I was working which made everything really fly by. School is so much fun too. All the things they do. Oh and all the money they want you to spend. Get ready for that. Hugs. Tell the girls Congrats

    1. I hope it stays fun. I want them to enjoy it, and I need to hold on to them being kids. πŸ™‚

  3. OMG that picture is hilarious! Mostly because I have to tell my daughter to stop cupping my girls all the time!
    I love you!
    I’m so proud of your girls and so proud of you! This is a big year coming up!!

  4. If it helps any, kindergarten is sweet too. My kindergartener was up at 6am today because she was so excited about pajama day. And I love the boob picture.

    1. Thanks Carol. That does help. πŸ™‚ I just need them to retain a little of their sweet little kid-ness for a while.

  5. My thing is that isn’t really a big change in our schedule. I go from daycare drop off to school drop off so WHY IS THAT SO HARD?!?! And for me? It hasn’t gotten easier. I cry on the first day of school. I cry on the last day of school. I cry in between when they do things that are so much “older”. Honestly, I’m just a mess. So… at least you know you won’t be alone.

    1. Yay for commiserating! I know i t’s a good step, but still. Little kids in big backpacks and big schools….I think I’m about to cry again.

  6. Ha! Love the last picture. πŸ˜‰ I hear ya. I felt that way, too, for sure. Now I’ve got two OUT of kindergarten and one going into preschool. I’ll have a second grader. SECOND! We can hold each other.

  7. My 3 year old attends preschool 5 days a week and we’re all happier for it, because a) he loves it b) I love that I have some time with the baby. So I think the transition to kindergarten will be easier for all of us (or at least, I hope).

    But yes, the growing up. SIGH.

    1. I really would have loved to put the girls in more than 2 days a week, but times 2, it was too expensive. It hurts to see them grow, but I know they will do well (and so will yours!).

  8. Girl, you’re gonna LOVE kinder too, trust me. Of course then you might be a blubbering mess AFTER that, like I was today at G’s “Graduation”.

    I love their different personalities and that last photo is CLASSIC.

    Nice, mommy blog, btw… ;-p

    1. Ha!
      I hope I do love kinder as much as I loved preschool. It just seems so big kiddish, and now they’re going to start doing the not so fun stuff. I just want them to like school. πŸ™‚

  9. I feel the same way. My sweet girl isn’t even in kindergarten yet, and I miss her already. Let’s make the most of our summer with our almost-big girls.

  10. Funny last line. πŸ™‚

    I still mourn when I walk past the baby aisle, knowing I’m never going to be buying formula and pacifiers.

    Although I still buy diapers, ahem.

    1. I’ve done that too, Jennie. Avoidance is the best tactic. But I AM at a place where I am thankful not to have to deal with bouncers, play pens, and baby toys.

    1. Thank you, Chantelle! (That one has a bit of an obsession with “the girls.”) πŸ˜‰

  11. Okay, the whole starting school no-end trajectory made me teary. You’re in good company. But they looked amazing. So did you. Cupped boob and all. Very stoic.

  12. I wish I could tell you it gets easier. Sheesh.

    I still remember my daughter’s first day of kindergarten – all white-blond pigtails and tiny tiny Striderite shoes. She ran across the playground like she owned the place with every single one of her 30 or so pounds.

    On her last day of elementary school, I couldn’t stop sobbing. Seriously. She wanted to go around and thank each of her teachers and I followed behind her crying (embarrassing for both of us!) with snot and everything.

    In three weeks she will promote to high school. High FREAKING school.
    My son will be a sophomore. Crappity crap.

    I’d give anything for my kids to be young enough again to cup my boob without either of us noticing. Or at least for my hair to have improved.


    1. “I’d give anything for my kids to be young enough again to cup my boob without either of us noticing” <---I will definitely have to remember that. πŸ™‚

  13. No kidding. I look at your girls and am like YAYY! But WOAHH!!! I just can’t wrap my head around how fast time flies sometimes- and kids are the ultimate test of that. Congrats, mama! And I do love the boob cupping lol.

    1. I don’t know how many times I’ve said I can’t wait until they start kinder. Now I’m kinda sat that we only have a couple of months left together. A couple of hot, sweaty, torturous months. πŸ™‚

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